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Open diary: Change 

All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.  ~Anatole France

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.  ~Victor Frankl

Someone asked me the other day am i okay? and for the first time i did not have a answer. How was i not sure of how i was feeling? A few days later i asked myself the same question am i ok and as i heard the words coming out of my mouth tears begin to fall from my face. The answer to my question surfaced through my tears. It was then i realized i was not okay. I wasn't happy, i pretended for a long time to be happy that i actually believed that i was. I was lying to myself. I begin to write down why i was not happy. I was not happy because of this and because of that. Many of the things i was not happy about was in my control and, the only way things was going to get better was if i made the necessary changes.